12.10.13 Up and Downs

So for the last few weeks as I mentioned on facebook, I have had some real ups and downs. Which for this time of year, might be normal for me, but add to that the stress of chemotherapy treatments, living very far away from my sisters, brother and dad and coming up on the closing of this chapter of my life (TWO TREATMENTS LEFT!) But yesterday and even this morning I am feeling as if I am coming out of it. I feel more happier and alive then in weeks. I am living in the moment and in this day. I am seeking and finding the little everyday blessings. Starting back at the beginning to start the beginning of this new chapter. Coming out of being a cancer patient and learning a new normal. I'm not 100% physically back and I am anxious to get back to working out, cooking dinner every night, running my kids around and keeping busy, but I am also learning my normal will be new. I will come out of this different, stronger. I will learn when to be still. When to lay in the hammock of God's love, woven in the trust I have in Him. He will care for me physically, this I have learned and now I'm learning He will care for me emotionally, mentally and as a constant companion. I am blessed to have my kids and Bill as they patiently walk me through this. Love you, love me, love you, love me.