2.11.14 cellular, journey, success, failure

Finally able to access my blog with my celly. So you are all on a new adventure with me! The last week has been very tiring for me, and still yet very exciting as I am anticipating this gem off from treatments! Today I BAKED! Strawberry shortcake scones and cornbread. I savored every bite. It was so good! I also did some homework with my Liz! Such small feats are no longer meaningless to me! They sat my heart to soar! I visited with friends, and my day is not over!!! I am so blessed to be sitting up in bed enjoying life, friends, family and baking! I also made turkey soup for dinner. I've been thinking about journeys in life and I first have to say I AM A BELIEVER in each of us having an ultimate journey. Heaven or hell. But as we make our journey, we take steps and each small step is a journey. Baking a cake, writing a blog, hugging a kid, seeing a patient. All little steps. I have friends and family that are on a path to sobriety and those who have yet to take that first step, I tell them, it will come, your time will come. I. Relieve this is for everyone. My journeys steps lately have rounded back into who am I? What is my step today? I have a fear, not of failing but of succeeding. I'm scared if I succeed I will have to continue to succeed. But today I would rather try and try and try and succeed, and fail. Rather than to not try at all. I love life!!! Love you, love me, love you, love me!

2.7.14~~ Wow early for me

Slept off and on for the last couple of days and learning to cope without Facebook has been interesting. I have been locked out of my facebook account, so until that gets settled, you are forced to hear me blab.I am enjoying life living in Anchorage. I wish I was able to get up and do more, but but am determined to be content in whichever situation I am in. At times it's rough. Laying in bed all day. Jittery. Wanting to be outside, wanting to be under the covers. Or in bed at 3 in the morning. The last couple of days I have been getting up early and making my family breakfast, which is nice. I look forward to sleeping in on the weekends!So just a quick up date. Love and miss you all. Love you, love me, love me, love you,

2.3.14...Updated appointment

Met with the doctor today! This is a good this. Still NED (No Evidence of Disease). I have been told my blood count is low so a break from chemo is on the horizon. In fact I will have a PET/ CT in about 6 weeks. No chemo until then! For most of you who follow me you know that My day of treatment and the next I feel pretty normal. I sleep a lot in the infusion chair and then when I come home. Tonight I came home, ate and crashed. It's about a 1/2 past midnight, and I feel completely wide awake. Thinking of my facebook friends and missing those who have been so very supportive. I will be back on in March. I just needed a break from the negitivity and feel positive about myself, my kids and the direction my life is taking. I also want to use this time to pray, and ask God about my plans for the summer. I so very badly want to travel home to Minto to spend time disconnected from the electronics of the world and camp and enjoy nature, my friends and family there! I am so very excited! Be blessed with me folks! Love you, love me, love you, love me!


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