So, it's still kind of morning. The sun is shining bright. I am inspired to bake on this beautiful fall day. One of my missions today. So I haven't yet told my facebook family, my family/family already knows. I have been waiting to tell and in some ways the more I put it off the less I want to share. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me I guess. I see this differently. I am not broken down because of this. I am in fact built up a little. So here goes.
I saw my doctor about 5 weeks ago. I have continued to see him every 3 weeks. He decided a few weeks ago to put me back on the drug Herceptin (medical name, Trasuzumab). It is a maintenance drug or a drug that block the receptor which feeds? the cancer. I am also on an oral drug called Lapatinib (have been for some time). This drug works with Herceptin. I sometimes like to think that if someone were to ever try and steal my meds I would tell them, ah, hey, that's chemo. HAHAHA. The cancer has not (and WILL not) come back. Because I WAS staged at stage IV, I will live with the cancer tag. But I will continue to say, continue to believe that the cancer is beat. I am still NED (No Evidence of Disease), and personally, I kinda like that. Yeah, I'm pretty happy with NED. I don't have any side effects with this one. I keep my hair, I can wear my contacts. And actually I'm doing really good energy-wise. I am cooking dinner, baking, laundry, sleeping and dreaming. (I actually dreamed about laundry last night).
I dreamed about my mom and dad too. We were all together. My mom doesn't talk in my dreams anymore. But I can hear her voice, mainly I still hear her say, "Rhonda..." and I can hear her laughing with my daughter Olivia. Olivia gave her so much joy! Today I will bake. I will bake and think of her, and my sisters! Ah bliss for the plans for today!
Love you. Love me. Love you. Love me.
PS. The following is a link about Breast Cancer, I'm not saying believe it, but I enjoy the pictures of the drugs. They are easy for me to see how the drugs help.
http://www.kddf.org/bbs/bbs.asp?IDX=629&cateId=39&mode=view&p=1
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