Thursday 9/1/11

It's September! There were moments this summer, I wasn't sure HOW I was going to make it! I lived in the moments and made it! God is good! I stayed home again today, cleaning up my house, a little at a time and it's getting there. I realize most of the summer I was either in bed or running away from it! Other than painting the living room I tried to stay away from home and "laying around". So cleaning this morning and I felt myself getting very angry I had to stop myself and say "If I'm not going to have a good attitude about this, if this is going to make me crabby, I'm going to stop. I'm not going to clean it up. I should be thankful to clean this up and if I can't then I need to stop until I do have the right attitude about it." So I changed my attitude right then and there and finished up. It was great. Another thought occurred to me this afternoon. About friends I have made since my diagnoses. Friends I would've never met, had I not been diagnosed with breast cancer. For that, today I am grateful. I am grateful for meeting these wonderful people and for reconnecting with others. I am grateful for the relationships God is restoring through my cancer. I love my friends, each of you, in a more deeper, meaningful way now. I know what it is to love. Love is worth it, negativity is not. Love is worth the energy and the effort, a crappy attitude is NOT worth wasting my time, energy or effort! Love you, love me, love you, love me