So, I know when I started this I promised myself I was going to be honest, with my past, my present and how I feel. So first, some of my posts I actually put in at a later date, but remain true to my feelings at the time. Secondly, I miss a few of my friends that are no longer at my church. I know things change, people change, people move. I know that I too must change and move. It's just difficult to grow and change and feel discouraged at things around me that are not moving at the pace I think or want. It then occurred to me, what if God wants me to have more than one friend? What if God's plans are for me to wait on the Lord? I struggle with going to church without having someone to touch base with outside of church. All of these feelings of missing my friends (whom are also mothers) and on Mother's Day make me feel a little craptastic. I have to say I am very blessed to have sisters who live so very close and I am able to lean to them.
I feel a leaning towards needing to be friends with those who I fellowship with outside of Sunday mornings. But I think my I need to put myself out there and stop expecting others to come to my rescue. So I will put myself out there and I will show myself to be friendly and I will do it in God's timing. This, all in all means, if you are my friend outside of church and you are looking for a church, I'm looking for more "church friends". Come to my church, sit by me. I need you, it's not so much about me wanting you to come to church to be churched, but me wanting you to come to church and know that you will have a friend. Love you, love me, love you, love me.
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