(note: it's very early in the morning 9/20, but for the sake of keeping up everyday on this blog)
Okay after an hour of laying in bed praying, contemplating, thinking, dreaming, planning and imagining, I am tired. First, don't EVER think I don't complain, cause that's about what I'm going to do. My rants tonight are sleep meds. I DO NOT like sleep meds. I have tried several. Everything from natural stuff to the high powered junk. They ALL make me either drowsy the next day or don't work. I HATE being drowsy during the day. Growing up, it was a bad thing to sleep during the day. The day was for working and keeping busy. Night was for sleeping. So with this mentality, I'm not a fan of sleeping in. I do like naps. In fact for as long as I can remember, I've needed a 2:PM nap. I remember working and everyday at 2PM, I took my lunch, cause that's when I was most tired... and I had to pick up my kids from school. The same is true 4+ years later. I still need to pick up my kids, so no nap. :( So my thoughts run this evening. I pray for everyone I can think of. I start with my kids, husband, brother, sisters, dad, uncles, aunts. Then the facebook friends. I go through and occasionally (okay, more than that) I get sidetracked. I think of my kids, how much I love them, things I can do for them, and why hasn't Lelly moved back to our bed? Then my friend's baby Palmer and I start praying again. Then I start to rant about not being able to sleep, then I think of things I should feel blessed about, because this gets my mind off my rants. TRY THIS. Say someone cuts you off in traffic or something REALLY irritates you, quick think of three things to be thankful for. Even if you're not TRUELY thankful for it. Even small stuff. "I have a car". "I don't have cancer". "I am breathing". If you're still cranky about being cut off, think of three MORE things. Different things. "The sun is shining". "It's not 40 below". I didn't hit that guy." Okay so I do this. Tonight and usually on insomnia nights, I am thankful I don't have chronic illness. Brain illness that causes DAYS of sleeplessness. Cancer for the 4th time. A sick child. A sick spouse. A sick sister/brother/dad/aunt/ uncle. These people are my hero's. Kristy! Wendy and Chris! Shauna! Candy, Rachelle, Eric, Heather, dad, Laurel, Aunty, Uncle Paul, Daniel, Chris, Ramanda, Sarah, Mindona, Hank, Steven, Stephen, Kevin, Uncle Edmund, Aunty Garnet, Uncle James, Aunty Louann and Aunty Bessie, Vera and UNCLE Josh! YOU people are my hero's! I love you all and late in the WEEEEEE hours I think of you and say a grateful prayer for you. Okay. Round two of trying to sleep, if not, more prayers. Love you, love me, love you, love me!
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