Tuesday my last Tuesday. Yesterday I met with the doctor and it was a VERY, VERY short visit. My last week of radiation so not a whole lot to talk about. I am ready to be done with this? Yes, Yes I am. I am ready to be done with Breast Cancer completely. I will miss the trips to Anchorage, I will miss the friends I have made at ANMC, but I guess there are times when I just want this to be done with and go to a place where there is no cancer. I know that I will always have it in the back of my mind, but what I have to remember is the good in the front of my mind. What good cancer did to me. It brought me closer to some, I made friends with folks, I learned how important my husband and kids are to me. I learned to love myself, I learned to speak my mind. I learned how important I am to God. I can go on and on. That is why I say I am blessed folks. It's like seeing the world through a whole new set of eyes. I HAVE to say, I feel I am a whole new parent. I truely am! My boost up. Three more to go. Only three, and already feeling a little nostalgic. But I'm on the up and up. Everyday the pain is a little less and a little less.
Tonight, my son and I sat on the couch (THE COUCH!) and watched TV. We made popcorn and he let me hold him and we joked and kidded and I loved EVERY minute of it. I love those moments when kids be kids and I as a parent let go of reminding and nagging and just love. (I wonder if God enjoys this too? Me being me and BJ being my little Beej) Okay, okay ... my last thought of the day
I remember hearing someone early on in my diagnosis, "this is do-able." TOTALLY DO-ABLE! I can do this. I can DO THIS! And look, you, YOU friends were here to help me every step of the way! Love you, love me, love you, love me!
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