8.1.14 BFF struggles?

A new day, a new month! YES! So grocery shopping today, which meant a trip into Anchorage. Keeping it real, I was wore out. But now it's late and time to go to bed so I am a bit more energized and awake.

I am missing my dad and brother tonight, maybe it's cause we grilled, maybe cause it's the weekend and I know I enjoy visiting with them and Bill. If they are reading, please know I miss, love and am praying for you guys!

Well more to post tomorrow. I also want to send a shout-out HAPPY BIRTHDAY to M.H. and LD, two of my bff's in another time. So with this I have a confession, I'm not the bestest of best friends. I lack in this area. I have lately been wondering if I am difficult to love to, or be close to. I take things very literally sometimes. I push people away. I become withdrawn, hard to reach. I am working through this, I am in the process. A few people have broken though with me and tomorrow and Sunday are the birthdays of two of these woman. I believe I suffered alot of lost friendships growing up. Not ANYONE's fault. There was a plan there, I met each of you when I was suppose to and love each of you. Actually thinking about it, I guess there were more than a few people have broke through to me, but I have noticed the older I get. Okay time to stop, I feel like I am feeling sorry for myself. I have more friends than I can count, I have been blessed beyond measure. I wish, I wish I could name you, those I am thinking of, I have been blessed by each of you.

Love you, Love me, Love you, Love me....