So. So. So. I guess with this title you can pretty much go anywhere. I am coming out from behind a very, very, very dark curtain. I spent some time in my past. I let my emotions get the best of me. I let others vent to me all of my wrongs. But, I let it all go. I forgave and will not go back to that place. I know when I am going through something very difficult--that something very beautiful will come of it, if I let go. If I let the emotions flow, and then let it all go. By this I mean, when the thoughts or emotions come back to be angry or sad or lonesome--I remind myself that I let it out and I let it go. I have been there and have no reason to go back. Going back will only hinder my process of moving forward.
I have yet to share with my internet family and friends, I am back in treatment. I am still NO EVIDENCE of DISEASE. I continue CT/CAT scans, PET scans, blood draws, doctor visits and oral chemotherapy (preventative measures). But now my doctor has ordered me back to the infusion room every 3 weeks for a drug called Herceptin. Another preventative drug. Hmmm. How do I feel? Honored. Blessed. Because those who see with only natural eyes wonder why the cancer hasn't come back. I choose to see in the spiritual relm that I am healed and that this cancer won't come back. *smile* So I am blessed to take more infusions and oral chemotherapy to show, to prove how strong God is and how He is using me. I am blessed. So very blessed. Love you, love me, love you, love me!
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