10.24.11 Itching and...

medicine issues. :( So I have to laugh, seriously. It's just one thing after another, but I think it's quiet comical, if nothing else. The side effects mind you. The issues I'm finding I have to go through it, mentally, emotionally and physically, but still at the end of the day, sometimes funny. I have this little jar in my kitchen I printed out (I think) 30 little things to love about myself to things to express to myself, love. Stuff like "go to the Library alone", "say something good about you as a mother". I pull one out and until I do the little thing, I can't pull out another. Some of them seem so simple but I realize I still have yet to do the activity MONTHS after pulling it out. But I really want to pull another out so I commit to it. Why I'm sharing this? It just helps, one to share and another to remind/encourage/be held accountable. I think I'm sharing this to also "get out of" sharing what's really going on. I'm trying so hard to not be discouraged by these allergies/iching AND then I run out of an important medicine that if I don't take it properly it can make me sick, and ohhh boy did it! I was so hoping to go to Olivia's basketball practice tonight and just got so sick from 3:00 to 5:30. Precious little girl was like "it's okay mom". What fantastic kids I have, soooo understanding and loving to me! Okay so it's the end of the day and I can laugh, laugh at you cancer, laugh at you devil, laugh at you side effects! You will not get me down and I AM LOVED! There's a scripture in the Bible, "The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. " Jeremiah 31:3. No matter how sick, how depressed, how unloved I feel, (no matter what I look like physically) I am loved with an everlasting love and I am being drawn with loving-kindness. God is good...(ALL THE TIME!) Love you, love me, love you, love me!