10.29.11 Bad Day

The ugly side of cancer. Today was a downer. Was fighting depression today. Found it so difficult to get out of bed, to do much of anything, but I did and finally found myself coming out of it this evening. I ran into friends I haven't seen in awhile. The reality of finding more cancer and having to do radiation is setting in. It was one of the things I didn't want to happen. But I didn't want cancer either. I am finding strength, in my weakness. I was weak today. This (I noticed) usually happens after a day or two of strong days. But I want to be real with myself and with all of you. That I am weak at times. That I cry and say I'm tired and don't want. But I remind myself that I can cry and I can have these feelings, but then I've got to pick myself up (or allow someone else to) and move FORWARD. Love you, love me, love you, love me!