3.14.12 Chemo ups and downs

So I am noticing a pattern here. The pattern is a few good days up and a day or two down. Mainly stomach issues. Doesn't matter what I eat, how much I exercise or the amount of water I drink. I'm come to the resolve, it's just the chemo drugs and that's the way it is. I can and tell myself, today is one, ONE day in a series of many. I also reflect on the fact how well I've been doing. No allergic reactions or excessive pain (to put me in the hospital) gained weight, and generally for the most part a good disposition and a strong fighter. It helps though, to voice things out and to let people know how I am feeling. I am a person too and have feelings and ups and downs. Cancer hasn't made me indestructible, or without feeling. It has made me stronger and able to see life differently. For the positive and the well, for the positive. I am choosing to not stop to think of the negative today. It's way to easy to fall into the trap of being negative. Things that are difficult, being a parent on chemo. That's hard. Having a spouse who works very hard and is very passionate about his job who gives his all and I want to support him with my all, but it's hard. I know what I can do today. I know my limits today. Today I rest. Today I am sick. I feel very ill. Today I will rely on my God and on the prayers of my friends and family. God bless you all! Love you, love me, love you, love me.