11.17.12 Roun2 Day 4

So lately my main reason for posting my rough days, is so that people will pray and that I can look back for a second and remember what I went hrough and give myself a pat on the back! Everyone has their challenges, there are days I want to give up, quit, God always turns me around. He is the vine, and I am the branches... He hangs on when I can't....I started this scripture a day or so before I started this round of chemo. It's been with me, reminding me that I am rooted on to Him. I am growing, living breathing off of Him, my heavenly father.  Today was restless, meds, tired, hungry, not hungry, not achy, achy. PEACE be still. This is is so difficult to learn for me here. And yet, when I find that peace, I wonder, is this it? Am I doing it? Isn't there suppose to be more? What am I doing wrong? and back to un-peace... restlessness. So I stop again, and listen. I hear the sounds of the television, the kids, my husband and I slowly slip into peace, realizing this time I deserve it and it's a gift. A gift of Peace Be Still, not a command....God is good. Love you, love me. Love you. Love me