Meeting with the Dr.

Today. Today. Today. A huge day for me since discovery that I had found a tumor that is cancerous. (Ugg, that word! It just SOUNDS ugly!) I met with my Oncologist. I have a chemo plan. 3 Chemo drugs, once every three weeks, two of the drugs for 6 cycles and the third one for a year. I still cannot comprehend a year. LORD, get me through this DAY! WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. My first cycle is Monday. Monday. The Dr. said after my first cycle about 7 days my hair will fall out. So I will shave it. I cried for the first time about my hair. I was surprised I actually care. There I was weeping, weeping my hair, my hair. Bill loves my hair. I love my beautiful brown native hair. Bill said it best...mourning. And that's how it felt. Ohh, sooo sad. I still have a CT, PET/BONE tomorrow. I am cautiously optimistic. Bill and I have been talking about him flying home to get the kids. Of this I would be so grateful. I miss my kids sooo much, Ohh to hold Lelly. :) :) :) To hold Olivia's hand :) :) :) and to hug my son BJ :) :) :) It makes my heart fly to think of them. Another Divine appointment. We met a man from a small village whose brother has cancer and will start chemo on Monday. He gave some great words of encouragement in the parking lot of our hotel! PRAISE YOU LORD!