Tonight I sleep with less hair!

So this evening I shaved my head! It's weird I was very nervous, but I don't feel unfeminine. I actually feel pretty. Prettier? Stronger. Definetly stronger. Empowered. It feels very weird to touch it. I don't like it rubbed and can see why little boys don't like their heads rubbed! After I took a shower I went to pull it back and squeeze the water out. A women thing I guess or maybe a long haired person thing... I am notsad about losing it. The last couple of days I have been losing more and more and that was disheartening. But this feels much better. I don't want to fool myself into thinking I took control. I don't EVER want to think that I'm in control of any of this. Because I'm not, God is. Before we (my sisters and I) got ready to shave it I prayed and the response I got was that "...in His timing, not mine" and that all of this was happening in his timing. And I'm OKAY with that. I would much rather have it in His timing and not mine. He knows far much more and much better than I can or ever will. I am so thankful this evening for strength and inner beauty. I am His child and beautiful and strong because I have Him in my life!