11.3.11 Late Night

Having a late night. I was reading about a case here in Fairbanks, and got to thinking about "hard times" which can look very different to each of us. I also heard a celebrities mom say "She is way stronger than I ever could be". But we are all different. We all have different struggles and different "hard times". I see people who fight addiction and they seem so strong to me. People in jail? I don't know how they do it. People with chronic illnesses like rheumatoid artritis. People who struggle to have kids, it can go on and on. What we do when faced with "hard times" determines a lot in my opinion. We can choose to fight and be negitive, we can choose to give up and become depressed, we can blame others, then there's the turning to God. My mom used to say give it all over to God. I didn't know what that meant. I did many, many, many times with my mouth. I give you my life. I felt no HUGE change right away. I felt a bit lighter. Then I would be faced with smoking cigerettes I would give it over to God, many, many, many times.Then I found out I was pregnant with BJ and I quit.  Hounding my husband is another thing. I stop and  pray, Lord I give this over to you, if He needs to change, only you can change him and only when he wants. BUT LORD, if it's me (and I know part of it is because I'm hounding here), change me. Change my heart and how I'm seeing things. I give it over to you. Somethings we give over once and we move on. Other things, habit, hurts and hang-ups that we have done over and over and over, need to be given up over and over and over. We'll get there. And we'll learn to be content where we are, because we are learning and loving. Sorry to preach, but I just feel so strongly for my friends and family to know how much I love them and know that they TOO will make it through their "hard times". Today, tonight, I thank God in advance for bringing you through and bringing you closer to Him. You're gonna make it, I'm praying for you! Love you, love me, love you, love me!