Deployed

I read in the paper (News Miner) that soliders have been/ are being deployed. I think to myself, that I have been/ am being deployed. I'm on a mission for my God. My first assignment? Not exactually sure, but I'm wondering if I have to give up caffine? A small sacrifice I would imagaine. I had a breaking moment. I cried about something happy, something good. I cried good and hard. I thought of who to call? My cousin Sarah, I wasn't going to then, I felt like God was saying it was okay. That He prepared her. I am so thankful to God for His blessings and that HE CHOOSE me, HE PICKED me to fight to reveal HIS glory through me. God didn't give this to me, he is allowing me. And now the uncomfortable stuff, I've had a few friends... I guess they don't understand and it hurts. I was reminded of how Jesus friends had betrayed Him. Not because they didn't love HIM, just cause they couldn't handle it... and that's okay. I will still love these people.